My Romance is in Your hand

Dear Lord,

It's been 5years since i dated or interested in a girl.
Once again, i have the feelings again? Am I ready?
I don't want to hurt her, so as not to endanger our friendship.
But I do like her.
1. Am i prepared to lead her spirtually and serve her in every way.
2. Are my actiond encouraging him to love God more.
3. Will this be God-Honouring and God-Centered Courtship?
I put my faith and trust in You.
Thank You Lord.

Jordan

Why?

Why did dreamt about you 2nights ago and last night.
Dreamt that u were going with me,
Yesterday dreamt about me sending you home with me driving a car.
Why are these coming to me?
Does want me to really try out this courtship?
Will this courtship help each other to grow closer to God.
Will this courtship make each other to become a better person for each other and others?
I would love her to join the upcoming conference. I hope she will come for You and not for me..
Lord at least make our friendship more stronger.
Thank You Lord.

More than friends but less than lover

Dear God,
Im in deep dilema....
How do not know how to tell her that i want to get to know her.
As a more than friends but less than lovers.
I also do not wish to endanger our friendship as well....
All i pray and ask is a heathly and pure courtship....
That we may learn and grow to know You and each other more....
Lord, i submit this in your name...Amen

Father's Love

I never get to know how it feel to be in the Father's love. I never tasted it before.
Since young i never enjoy what children got to enjoy with their father. i was living in doubts and fears. Why does this happen to me? Why does this happen to this child Jordan Loo Yu Tai. That wish to know how a father's love is.
My father have this mental illness for a very long time...Since im 5years old.
This mental illness is name Bipolar. You can check for yourself. People with this illness will always be very active in mind and do not sleep much and tend to disturb us during wee hours. It is not harmful and but careless thinking from my dad can cause a lot of problem. I remember once my mum almost couldn't take the pressure of it. She took a knife when in the room trying to commit suicide but we manage to stop her.
My dad hardly work and he spend money like water because of his mental condition. My mum was alone raising my sister and I up till now. I got no choice but to choose to work after my N Level to lighten my burden.
Living with my dad for 23 years. Doing the things that hurt us so much again and again. Is this the father it used to be when i just came to this world? My heart is just so numb now. I don't know whether to blame myself or to blame him. I just don't how to talk to him anymore, I don't when will it stop. And i don't if i forgive will i forget about everything. So many years we've tried to rescue him from the pit yet he fell back in again. And my prayer still goes on ..............................................................................................................................................................................................................................
I make a promise to myself that i will be a good father to my children and wife. I don't want them to live without a father's love.

Father Lord I thank You for Your great love, freely you give it all for us on cross and bear our sins on that cross. Your eagles wings that embrace us through difficult times and trouble. Thank You Lord.

Review of year 2008

Year 2008 has been a year of ups and downs. Going beyond within my limits is by God's grace to walk through narrow and winding road of life. Life is a journey; a temporary one. We come to this world. we live, play, learn, work and rest.


Places that i went, people that i saw, things that i learnt, fun that i enjoyed, sad time that i went through able me to be ready for year 2009.



PLACES
Australia, Perth
A 9 day trip to Perth was truly amazing. Simply being an aussie for 9days and trying to speak like them is cool even. Yeah mates!!



A place name Albany, where you can see both Indian Ocean and Southern Ocean meets.


Kalgoorie, a place where you can get 40 feet down to see those miners digging mine and gold.


Busselton, where you can have good slow 2km long walk to the jetty


PEOPLE THAT I SEE

My beloved church friends. We call each other brothers and sisters. A bond between us that will never cease us from together.


Charmaine a leader that i always respect and wanting to learnt from her
Mark a great guitarist/musicians and hoping he has time to teach me some of his guitar skills
Eldad a wonderful drummer and wonderful guy. There's always something to talk between us.
Michael Noonan thought i only met you for few days. A great and talented man of God. A very good singer and cool person to be with.
Last but not least my blood sister, Joyce, always guide and teach me and nag me at times. Thanks for being there for me all these years.

Charis, a cheerful and jovial girl always. A great singer with great personality. All the way.
Wendy, a lady always get tease by people but also being loved by those people teases her. A great teacher and a person that u chat when u are bored.

Debbie, a faithful child of God with great talent in her. A soft, gentle and a corny lady.
Claudia, a sweet lady always cover her mouth when she smiles.:)
Esther, a devoted girl to work and church. Always helpful...Keep it up!

Marlene, a great keyboardist/pianist and a great teacher. Thanks for tutoring me during my school days.
Ivan, a talented bassist/musician. He likes to solve all the buzzing coming from speakers.Brandon, a boy that can't stop laughing. A kind hearted person but more changes to come as the Lord reveals.
Medad, a basketballer, guitarist and upcoming projectionist. A person that you can your heart out. Great guy to be with. Cheers bro always love you.

Timmy, a hunk to be,a great dancer and bassist to be. Great fun with you always. Jokes, chat, whatever u name it.

RIVERS OF LIFE WORSHIP TEAM

My heart always belong to here. Love you all :)

FUN & SAD TIMES
There's always good times and bad times at my workplace

I can say that i have been working Samsonite since young at the age of 16 as part timer until age of 20 after i completed my NS i started working back at Samsontie as full timer. There is always deep memory working this company. With so many changes made in the company. I started to ponder whether to stay, for a very long time. And i've decided to leave and move on to the new phase of life that God has planned for me. I want to take this opportunity to thank Khairul, my handsome supervisor has always been there to teach me and guide and give me tips to go on in Retail Line. Thank you very much.




There is more to this life than living and dying; working hard and playing hard. Life is walking the Big Picture. What is my big picture? and What is yours? 2008 i give myself 69 out of 100. There's so much to improve on. I just can't stop learning. Learning and moulding is part and parcel of life. Through life's stages, we have our ups and our downs. But life s such that everything will come to an end. Ecclesiastes 3:1-2 says, "For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven. A time to be born and a time to die.......

Good Enough

Do not take me for granted
Do not walk away and hide
Do not leave everything aside
and walk your own
Do not neglect my care and thoughts,
For the care and thoughts
are not of evil
but of a good hope and a future.


It seems the more we talk
The less I have to say
Let’s put our differences aside
I wanted to make you proud

But I just got in your way
I found a place that I hide
Now everything is changing
But I still feel the same

We’re running out of time
What do I have to do
To try to make you see
That this is who I am
And it's all that I can be

I tried to find myself
Looking inside your eyes
You were all that I was meant to be
There must be something else

Behind all the lies
That you have lead me to believe
Now everyone is saying
That I should find a way
To leave it all behind

its been a long while

Its been a long while i post anything on my blog. Life has been busy and tough at times. It's been 3years since my last relationship. Living past 3yrs single, there is happy and there is moment of sadness and loneliness. But God is always faithful to me. Yesterday today and forever....If only i can find such love in the human race that's why God first love us

Patiently searching, faithfully waiting for my life partner to come appear in front of me. My love will come one day....only heaven knows.
This world is changing so fast, people changing too. To keep up in this human race is tired and weary. Life goes on and on, things will eventually come at the right time. Marriage, children, sickness and death it will all come at the right timing...
Expect nothing, live frugally on surprise.

My trip to Taiping

I want to Thank God giving me such a fun time in Taiping. Absolute Fun.

I leave my house at 7.45pm. I took cab too the bus station at Boon Lay market. The bus departed from the bus staion at 9.p.m. Pass the custom, pass the Bridge to Johre, Pass KL all alone by myself. No family members with me. I fear is that i won't be able to see my family and friends in taiping. But I thank God He gave me a safe journey to taiping. I reached taiping at 4.35a.m. Now is where the adventure begins.



First i told raymond to come and pick me up at Simpang bus station at 5.30..BUT...the bus was driving at high speed. reached 4.35am. So i qucikly gave raymond a call for many times then he pick up at last. And he told he will reach about 5am. But in the end he reached there at 5.20am. All along i was siting on the floor at the petrol kiosk. Look like beggar.:p.



Then raymond came with a really small bike. So i have to squeeze with him on the bike with luggage. Then reached his house, rest a while. then his boyfriend came drive me around with a car. We went to eat at a small coffee shop, then when to a playground opposite the Taiping Zoo.

Then i decided to go Linet house to my barang barang. Bu she was not at home, only her sister at home. Linet will be home only at about 1pm in the afternoon. That is like...sooo long. So i decided to go visit Even. but it took us 30mins to find her house under the hot scorching sun. Have a chat with her. Play with her piano, watch tv, waiting for Linet to call me so that i can go back to her house and meet her. Then not long after got news that she is back. So i leave even's hse to go and meet with Linet. I was hot and sweaty and thirsty when i got back her home. Haha...Then i took quick shower, then we set off to have lunch outside then go and grab a shirt, due to last minutes she told that we are going burmese pool.HUH? not enough baju(shirt) for me lor. Then after we go bowling centre watching people play only;. Don want to say why. They know themselves. haha.Then decided to go play badminton but no more court to play. So ended up back Linet's hse to watch...hahahahaaha...THE WILD. Wild Kuala Wild Lion Wild Spikey Dude.Haha...

After watching the movie we went to Mission hse to vist the bunch of cool ang moh(British).
Then we proceed to FGA church for prayer mtg at 8.30...And for your info i have not taken my dinner yet. So i strave myself still 10 plus i get eat ah rahmand prata which don't taste nice. BUt im HUNGRY. BUrp!!.Then i feel very sleepy and tired cuz i did not have any good sleep on the bus. Got back home bathe, watched EVERYBODY LOVES RAYMOND, and went to slp.
The next day, Linet and her sister, Rachel having a hard time to wake me up....haha......
To Be Continue....